I know I am not the only one to have felt this before but, right now I am at a point in my life were I am wondering and praying what does God have in store for me next. I received some news today about something that I truly was pouring my heart and soul into. This news would not allow me to further seek something that I so wanted and desired. My gut is wrenched, my mind is swirling, and I just feel like I have a huge hole in my life right now. This feeling just sucks and I can’t wait for it to stop.
This feeling is nothing more that selfishness trying to turn me upside down and tear me apart. I never would have thought about ministry let alone truly believe in Christ 10 years ago. Now I want so desperately to be involved in ministry and be an example of Christ to the best of my ability. Which sometimes is so far a way I can see Jesus reaching out and smacking me on the back of my head. In no way will I give up or fall away I just want to know but, I do know it will all be in God’s time and hands.
“Father I know you see me and how my heart ackes for you and others around me. I know that my desires are not what is right but, it is your will that I have to obey. I just pray that you will let me see soon what it is that you have in store for me.”
